10.29.2009

What I won't do

I won't be able to control myself when I get back from vacation on November 10th. I will finally have some private time away from my DH, and I will scour the web for signs of his wedding. And I'm sure I'll find at least some pictures. Won't those be lovely to stab myself in the eye with? I wish I had the power to tell myself I won't do this. And I'm sorry.... I know I technically COULD not look for them. But in reality? I know I won't resist the urge. It will be too compelling. And it will hurt like a motherfucker.

4 comments:

  1. Anonymous10:45 AM

    Thinking of you, wishing you peace and strength in the days to come.

    Sometimes the pain feels good...sometimes, it just hurts like a mofo.

    Take care of you, whatever that looks like.

    Kim

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  2. Anonymous6:38 PM

    Ugh! Why do we do this to ourselves? I know I would do the same. :(
    I'm telling myself as of the upcoming new year I will no longer cyberstalk. Care to join me?

    E

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  3. E, I want to get there. I really do. That's a good idea for a resolution... it's good to set goals. Sigh. Thank you Kim, as always.

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  4. Anonymous3:45 PM

    Hoping your time away was nice - and that your return goes as well as can be expected.

    Thinking of you. Hugs.

    Kim

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