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A new trend?

OK guys, I know better than to say I've changed until at least a month or so passes... but I think I might have changed. At least a little bit. I decided to try not checking my stalker places at all this week as a goal, and it was pretty easy to do for a while. I found myself at home alone just now and went to check one of the places, and you know what? It just didn't feel good. Some part of me finally recognized that going there is like clubbing myself over the head. It hurts. And it's pointless. So why do it? My new goal? Don't check any of those places until at least the end of the month. Baby steps. Let's see if I can do this....
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  1. Anonymous4:19 PM

    Good for you sweetie! I wish you to the end of the month with no new hurts and a possible extension! ;)

    E

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  2. Healing and Learning2:23 PM

    Thank you E!

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