Yep. It hurts. Not as much as it might have, once... but it hurts. Damned information chain.
So, sometime in the last month, I hit the true one year no contact mark. The last time I heard from the ex affair partner, he called me at work because he had gotten wind of an email announcement my husband and I drafted together last May. It was a message we decided to jointly send to our mutual friends (friends with us and the ex affair partner) to tell them that the affair happened, and ask them to not mention the ex affair partner to us anymore. We also asked them to keep it confidential. Obviously since he called me about it someone told him... not surprising I guess. We all were part of a pretty close-knit group of friends while the affair was going on. It's been five years or more since we have all lived in the same state, but we knew most of our mutual friends still kept in contact with the ex affair partner. So it follows that one of them was still close enough with him to tell him we had sent the message. Anyway. Here's what it felt like to hear his voice on the oth...
My xmm got married and had a baby too. Yes it hurts. But thats ok right. I figure it will be while longer before it is completely out your system and out of mine. Its nice though not having that i want to die feeling.
ReplyDeleteYes, it's nice not wanting him every single minute of every single day. Why do our brains keep wanting everything though? Knowing we don't REALLY want all those things. I think humans are inherently selfish. I want everyone to only want me. I think that's what it boils down to. Not wanting him. Just not wanting him to want anyone else and have anything else. Bleh.
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