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  1. Anonymous9:54 AM

    Just found your blog today. I'm recovering from the same situation.

    Our experiences are so similar - it's uncanny. THanks for sharing.

    And yea, this song had special resonance for me too.

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    1. Healing and Learning10:18 PM

      Glad my story could help. It gets easier, that much I can tell you. It does suck along the way at times too though. Congrats on beginning your recovery.

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  2. Anonymous10:39 AM

    Aazing, this selfish act was and still is all about you and your needs. You whine and pine so much for your AP and your pain.

    I guess you haven't really figured out how much pain you caused others like your H or you just don't give a rip since the world revolves around you and your whims.

    Grow up. You don't dereve a husband or a family.

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  3. Anonymous11:48 PM

    When this song first came out, I had broken up with the asshole. And oh how I cried over him. The pain made me vulnerable to his hoovering and he pulled me back in to the bullshit again. Shit continued for years and got wayyyy deeper and dangerous for me before I finally caught on that he was a liar, a user, and a selfish cheater. Oh how I wished I had dumped him way back in that first year when things were still simple.

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