Yes, I am thinking about him more during this time. No, it hasn't weakened my resolve to give up stalking him. I've come to a new realization: he will always be in my heart and in my mind, but something happened this year that made me realize he no longer controls them. Happy holidays to all, and stay strong.
So, sometime in the last month, I hit the true one year no contact mark. The last time I heard from the ex affair partner, he called me at work because he had gotten wind of an email announcement my husband and I drafted together last May. It was a message we decided to jointly send to our mutual friends (friends with us and the ex affair partner) to tell them that the affair happened, and ask them to not mention the ex affair partner to us anymore. We also asked them to keep it confidential. Obviously since he called me about it someone told him... not surprising I guess. We all were part of a pretty close-knit group of friends while the affair was going on. It's been five years or more since we have all lived in the same state, but we knew most of our mutual friends still kept in contact with the ex affair partner. So it follows that one of them was still close enough with him to tell him we had sent the message. Anyway. Here's what it felt like to hear his voice on the oth...
Well said. My New Year resolution is no more cyber-stalking. I have to let every bit of him go so I can be whole again.
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Does your husband know you were obsessed with your AP this much all this time after it ended? My guess is not seeing as in previous posts you seem comfortable lying to him. Why did you beg your husband to stay? (I'm guessing that's how it happened based on one previous post, though you never said specifically.) I think the decent thing to do would have been to let your husband go so he could have found a woman who really cares about him.
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